Broke up on last day of 2010

Finally got the courage to do so. I neeed to do this, best decision despite hurting one.

I will need the courage to move on soon.

COURAGE

For memory of 10mths together.

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3rd day he in hk

I dunno why I keep thinking of him all day. I m determined to break up with him too. No use holding on to someone who doesn't love me as much as I do n fools around, misuse my trust.

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Leaving

I dun like the feeling of separation.
Infatuation I guess.
Kinda miss the feeling of being pampered n feel the concern being showed.

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Xcited!

I think my life will go through tremendous changes in 2011.

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Jeff is getting engaged despite of the fact that they got together less than 3 mths.

i am jealous.
i hate people around me is getting married.
now i noe why girls would feel during this period.

i am only 21. i should not be going through all these at this point of time in my life.
why should i be going through?

Somebody said something to me before that made me realised something.
i am not fit to be someone's GF.
i really do not know how to love one.

i am such a failure.
looking back at all r/s, it does prove to me that i am IN FACT a 100% FAILURE GF.

thus i am not fit to get married.

why am i feeling this right now?

this feeling shouldnt be felt within me AT ALL!

ARGH.

FCUKED !!!!

FCUKING SHITTY DAY

Life is making fun of me when i moved on, finding a new aim in life.

SMU just cocked up my life when i think my life is perfect nw.
It might be contridicting to say so..
as i have a stable job now, willing to extend me, and i am studying happily as a student of KAPLAN for ACCA Certification and .....


i Accepted SMU's offer.-.-

it's too good to reject this offer, yet, i felt wasteful to give up my career.
sigh.

just a quick update.

i am soon-to-be jobless @19th July, which is a sunday.

meaning i will be jobless on Fri, 17th.

anyway.

i signed up for ACCA, and tml will be my 1st lesson, Biz Law.

the format is about the same as poly.

so i hope i will do well ?

mmm, so far, work luck isnt that great, r/s too.

am single again, whooowooo.

this time, i hope i seriously wont get into a r/s so soon.

i am so gotta learn to adapt to singlehood again.

and gotta learn to enjoy single-dom.

((:

Jia you bah.

Fav.

1. Bangkok, Thailand

I am seriously so sorry for what i have done to you.

Please be happy..

It's such an irony that i made a decision based on thhe logic i used for buying a wallet.

enirek could you stop doing stupid stuff???!

I am such a bi*ch.

Fcuked off

watever it is, kerine is sort of back to normal.

and of course, back to normal routine((:

虽然六月份治过了仅仅的七天。

我的生活却过得一塌糊涂。

六月五日，应当是我们在一起度过的第两个月， 但此时此刻的我却对这段感情感到无比的彷徨。。

不知我们的结缘是否是对的选择。

这几天，不断的哭泣，不想的回响， 以为已经放的下的我，其实真的放不下。

在我以为我放得下的期间，我把它的号码删除了，并把简讯统统删了。

我真的希望他不再联络我， 这才会帮助到我。

当天，我也参加了残障噢运会。

从那些小孩身上，我有所领悟。

为何我们不能像他们一样， 过得轻松自在， 而要你争我夺的过日子？

我对人生感到无奈， 也觉得惭愧。

我真得很想好好地去珍惜我所爱的人。

但为何每当我想去珍惜一个人，那个人似离我好远好远。

近在咫尺， 却无缘在一起。

真的觉的心灰意冷了。

真的累了。

i will be back to post on Special people...

Back for some blogging!((:

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Awful red bean blended ice 
2. Last phone call: mama
3. Last text message: i am hm babes!
4. Last song you listened to: Shui Jing
5. Last time you cried: one moment ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yea.
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: nv drunk, nv threw up be4

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Lime green
13. Orange
14. r€d

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: yea
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: partially? i am back to original state
19. Found out who your true friends were: not really
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes sorta
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: not yet
22. How many people on your friend's list do you know in real life: 80%? i am currently trying my best to delete those ppl i dunno
23. How many kids do you want? 2
24. Do you have any pets: 2 dogs
25. Do you want to change your name: kerin with an E pls. --> kerinE
26. What did you do for your last birthday:  went cedele with my bitches.
27. What time did you wake up today: supposedly 430 but snoozed till 445
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: in my lala land.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Marriage
30. Last time you saw your Mother: nw looking at her
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: pls make all my wishes come true
32. What are you listening to right now : keyboard clicks n fan sound
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: this man
35. Most visited webpage: facebook
36. Whats your real name: Kerin
37. Nicknames: Ker , ah mei
38. Relationship Status: single or not, i dunno,  and definitely unAVAILABLE
39. Zodiac sign: pieses
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary School?: ahmad ibrahim primary school
42. Secondary School?: Orchird park sec
43. High school/college?: ngee ann polytechnic - banking & financial services
44. Hair colour: black 
45. Long or short: Long
46. Height: 160cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? yeah.
48: What do you like about yourself? i am so PESSIMISTIC about all things i am doing, likes listening to extra EMO chinese songs.
49. Piercings: yes
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: R

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: when i was born. does that count?
53. First piercing: yes
54. First best friend: Michelle tong
55. First sport you joined: Swimming
56. First vacation: Mysia- Genting
58. First pair of trainers: n/a

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: n/a
60. Drinking: n/a/
61. I'm about to: go to bed if noone chats wif me on msn
62. Listening to: didn't i answer this earlier? *points to q32*
63. Waiting for: my white horse

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: didn't i answer this earlier AGAIN? *look to q23*
65. Get Married?: yea
66. Career?: AUDITOR

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spon
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: R/s
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nah
77. Drank hard liquor: guess so
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nop
79. Sex on first date: Nope
80. Broken someone's heart: i guess so
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yea
84. Cried when someone died: yea
85. Fallen for a friend?: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: nt really
87. Miracles: hoping HARD
88. Love at first sight: if thr is

89. Heaven: no
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date:yea
92. Angels: rubbish

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: yea
95. Did you sing today?: yea
96. Ever cheated on somebody?:yea
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: before i was born
98. The moment you would choose to relive?: when i am in blissfulness
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: starting to feel tt
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Nope

Poor deer..

Jimny((:

I have been offered a choice.

Now, i am being sandwich-ed between the 2 choices.

Yi Qi, money?

Yi Qi, money?

Yi Qi, money?

Yi Qi, money?

Yi Qi, money?

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which is more important to u?

LaPrincesse..29thNov..

The day is just fab for me. 

Everythhing seems to be so nice in place((:

in love 

((:

LaPrincesse..29thNov..