enirek cried again today.
showing the weakest enirek to her best buds.

seriously enirek couldnt control anymore. she gotta break down if these continues...
enirek dont know why hui fa zhan dao zhe yang.
sigh.

enirek still carries hope.
hope of reconciling one day..
buds may say i dumb dumb and not worth it.
but enirek zhen de fang bu xia.

ash told me to NOT to chat with him, but seems like i am doing vice versa now.

sorry buds. when he talked to me , i FELT better(:

sigh, dumbest woman enirek.
and oh my god, i got this bad news crashing onto me.

i am breaking down NOW.
ash , jas i need ur hugs now. NOW>!

perhaps this would really make me si xin.
i hugged my mum and cried in her hugs.

dumb dumb woman felt heart-wrecked.
enirek seriously is tired, tired from relationships.
it's straining my energy.

enirek understand it's NOT possible anymore.
no longer possible.
FIR- wo men de ai
i hate to listen to this song.
but it brings out the scenario.
ai guo le jiu bu zai hui lai- once the love is gone, it'll be gone forever.

i hope this will get into my mind and heart that i will nv do this to my next-BF again.
i will treasure him more than anything!
becos ai guo le jiu bu zai hui lai!

i will learn to let him go,and place him as memories, not holding it tightly.