so scary to realise enirek has changed so much that she, herself couldnt believe it.
it's definitely not a good thing.

the past experience caused so much pain that it seems to be a phobia to me now.
PHOBIA. gosh.
i hurt someone, i'm sorry.
sorry is always what i said, and too much of it, people around me becomes immune to it.

strangle-d.
too much excuses, trying to protect myself..
sigh.

i am not fit to receive...
i am not capable of giving..
i am really scared.
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