emoness

i hope the mass tons load of work would
drown,
suffocate
and deprive me
from my free time to hu si luan xiang.

randomly, i miss my buds.
the last time i see them was in aug.
one busy with GF, another had tons of his poly frens to go out with.
the rest, i guess i lost touch with them.

sigh.
am i that bad?
i am sorry frens, for some stuffs, i just dunno how to tell you all.
maybe that gave you all a bad impression of me.

i am bad in handling relationships.
regardless of frenships etc.
i just dunno how
and
i guess i am just not fit to......

iam just want to indulge in my world of emo-ness now
my existence, would that really matters?

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