AGONY

enirek is terribly sad now.

who is the person that enirek would spent on despite being broke?
treating her all the good food enirek can think of.
buying her necessities that would make her look good?

after all the things i have done for her, if she still thinks i am that immature and dunno how to think, i have nth to say.
except the fact that i am ABIT lazy, moodswings alot
iDARE to say i am a perfectly GD child all parents opt to have.

i dun expect u to say how gd i am infront of other people.
all i wanted is dun say that i am bad/immature/dun care abt ur wellbeing.
i am more concern than anybody abt ur wellbeing!

it's just hurting and felt tt how matter how well i fare in being ur daughter, you just think i am just nt doing well enough.
just like when i am young.
you nv praise how smart/clever i am whenever i gets 100/100.
you only scold me when i nv get full marks.
when is my effort being recognise?
pls tell me.

all i need is your understanding and appreciation.
do you even know what your daughter needs?
i guess not?

i am just tired of all these.
life.

all i care now is money!
whr e fcuk do i find money to repay the fcuking credit debts owe to CI-TIbank?
500!
gosh.
fcuking hell.
she's taking my whole sanyang fei for this mth too, salary isnt enough too.
i had to put back the items tt i wanted to buy.
i have to think THRICE be4 i buy!

wtf.
i sound like a desperate poor gal now.
fcuk fcuk fcuk!
vulgarity is heavy today.
cant blame me.
too stress!
arggh!